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Well, today I worked really hard at not doing what needed to be done, according to BayBeeGee land. Orders are piled up, each one needing one tiny thing or two from the fabric store in order to be started and/or finished. So I basically worked on things that I wanted to create, for myself, and for my new mini biz Sunshine Luci. I started Sunshine Luci because I liked the name. It came to me really randomly one day, and reminds me of an indie rockabilly/folk-ish band. And because if I ever have a little teensy baby daughter, her name will be Sunshine Luci. Growing up my mom told us (my younger brother and I) stories of her horse named Sunny, riding in the mountains, through fields, jumping streams, living wildly, who I later found was named Sunshine...I think. Every night before bed she would give us a kiss and say "dream of Sunny". Every night she said this, and I have found myself every morning asking my son as I snuggle him and wake up, if he had "sweet dreams of Sunny". Anyways, I started feeling very claustrophobic with BayBeeGee about a month ago. The pressure of repeatedly coming up with new styles, new prints, new products for every season, all the sudden really freaked me out. What if no one likes it? What if 3 years down the road I have no more ideas? THEN WHAT?! Dont take me wrong, I absolutely LOVE what I do, but it just hit me that I need to take the time to stop thinking purely BBG, breathing everything BBG, when it comes to my sewing life, and make something I wanted to make - for me! So I did, Sunshine Luci was born, and now I cant stop. The list is never ending of the things I long to make for myself, our house, Gavyn, even my amazing husband. From duvet covers, to tiny chapstick pouches that attach to your keychain, to journal covers and pillows with pom pom fringe on them.

And now Im back! Its been 7 months since my last confession - I mean blog post. Wow. Lots of new goings on in the Poarch family: new house, no more dogs, super growing business, and that pretty much sums it up nice and short and sweet. BayBeeGee has grown from appliqued shirts to beautiful dresses, fun and funky aprons, and oodles of custom orders. I LOVE what I do. I mean L.O.V.E. it. Sewing to me is my stress release, letting my mind go where no mind has gone before. Visualizing creations and then actually bringing them to life is amazing to me. It brings me a sense of accomplishment that not many other things have given me. I like to be good at something, and this is it. I hated sewing in high school. I was given a book with projects such as pajama pants or a pillowcase with the 2 fabric choices, of the ugliest prints you could imagine. This ruined sewing for me for awhile. Now I live, eat, and breathe it. Besides my family, it is my ultimate passion. Im reading an amazing book about crafting as a business, and its inspired me to create my studio into a haven, my magical place, a place to let loose and let the fabric fly! And so I am doing just that. Its nothing special right now, but soon its going to be amazing.